Be sure you've read last night's blog,"Unfair", for a little background.
As I was thinking of all of yesterday's events in the wee hours of the morning, God brought to mind the kids and myself. I thought about how they act when something I do seems totally unfair...to them. (Yelling, fit throwing, "meanie mommy", "I hate you". The works!) I remembered what my husband said to me after our daughter had one of her little sessions yesterday afternoon. "She will apologize later and restore." We know she doesn't really mean the things she's saying, she really loves us, she ultimately knows we're good, but she doesn't think what we're asking of her right then is fair. And she trusts that we are strong enough for her to be able to melt all the way down in the moment and still be emotionally available later to restore relationship.
That totally made me realize 1. I'm so glad we don't spank or punish the kids when they say those things even though it really hurts to hear. 2. It helped me not to take it so personal. I mean here's the perfect God and I'm sad/upset and feeling like he's unfair. Yet He's not shaken by that. He knows his own goodness. Yes, He wants me to ultimately put my trust and faith in what I know instead of feel but He also wants me to tell him all about how I feel, to let it all out so we can restore, so he can remind me that He IS good.
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